Thursday, March 24, 2005
very very very diy(disappointed in you)
okay. it's been quite some time againe every since i last blogged.. =x
self-discipline gone again..
hahaha.
sigh..
lately aint pleasant days for me again.
i found out that my trip to Toyko's confirm.
kinda happy but upset at the same time..
happy cuz its been quite some time since i went overseas.
(esp with my parents)
upset cuz i gotta part from Muff for like 8 days.. ):
he's gg overseas with his friends.
and supposed to go during the period when i'm not in Singapore.
but oh wells..plans changes..
sigh.
kinda sad when he told me he's gg Bangkok in May..
esp when i want to go there very badly in May with my friends..
but its like..he just have to go there and making things worst: w/o me..
*pouts.
is anything wrong with me again lately?
all the old and familar negative feelings are coming back.
his firends are always more important.
he can forget to tell me his gg out with his friends.
but he neva fail to forget to tell his friends when he's got a outing with me..
until i ask.
you wanna know what tiew i had?
do you even care?
and i already forsee that you'll have LAST MINUTED PLANNED DINNER WITH THEM.
cuz you guys always do..
as much as i want you to rush back to have dinner with me or at least your sis.
but i figured out that you'll get all in-decisive again..
so why bother coming all the way back from Lavendar to have dinner with me?
you only think abt your friends..
everything in your heart/mind/soul is only your friends..
when friends come and approach you, you just put everything down or forget everything that is happening around you and just "GREEN LIGHT: GO".
you've got a little sister at home.
i've got a dad who is coming home at dinner time.
sighhhh.
i read LR's blog just now..
i'm as upset as she is too..
i dont wanna admit but i also have got a tiny LR in me too.
just that i try try try to hide it and not show it out..
argh! maybe i should just swallow everything.
i doubt you know there's anything wrong with me..
sigh..
diy
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