Monday, July 31, 2006
Lord i lift all my burdens to you!
i guess most of you knew what was going through my the past weeks. a big thank you to all of you for being and sticking with me through these times. i know i wasnt in a very good mood and threw my temper on some of you. and i'm really sorry.
i was in a terrible state of mind. half of it knows that i shouldnt be blaming and doubting God, but half of my mind was doing that! struggling not blame and doubt God but trust that He'll see me through it seemed so hard. i used to think that i could go through these shitty period of time by my own strength and efforts. i thought that i wasnt in the right mind to lead worhsip this sunday. but i was so proven wrong by God! i never knew how miserable i felt till i poured out my tears and burdens to God during worship. and right after the worship, i felt as if all my burdens were lifted of my shoulder and i felt
RELIEVED AND REAL HAPPINESS in the inside! as for the right mind worship or not, i'll just uplift the whole worship session into His hands and trust that He'll lead me in worship. despite the things which are still on-going, i felt as if i had the courage to face them and to still smile.
Extract from Our Journey's 2nd Sept 2006 devotion:"If we're about to burst with feelings of disappointment and anger, they need to find safe release. Emotions we have not poured out in the safe hands of God can turn into feelings of hopelessness and depression. GOD IS SAFE. Psalm 62:8 says, "Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us." At all times - not just when we feel good and have lofty things to say."AMEN to that! i did that and i felt much better right away! i
was drowning in hoplessness and depression and i am not drowning in that anymore! no problems are indeed too small for God. anyways i feel that God is working in all of our lives. i know He's gonna do something to all of us in Agape Youth. and i want to see a BREAKTHROUGH in us! ;) i pray that the angel Breakthrough will walk before as a cloud in the day and as a fire in the night. it will lead us the way and protect us from all evil! (:
THANK YOU GOD! (: thank you for always refreshing me every Sunday.
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